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Hopefully when your day is getting sad, Candy starts to rain on you.

–Geraldine S. —

When my sister in law sent me these words (above), somehow…. I felt this feeling of inner joy. Thank you Geraldine!

Time: 10:09pm

Date: Thursday September 16, 2021

Place: The Club in the ATX

Max here with another one. Another update on the journey to my first million. Since I have last written life has slwoly begun to take a turn for the better. At least in the sense of my mentality. Ya know, life is always gonna throw you challenges and hurdles. Life is ALWAYS going to test you. If you want something different than your norm, then you will always be forced to show why and how badly you want it. You are always going to be forced to fold under the pressure of life or somehow find the inner strength to get up one more time after being knocked down. And everything you will ever read about successful people will always say that the only difference between a successful person and failure, is that the succesfful person got back up one more time.

I started this post on Thursday, but things got busy and my mind just had a pickle of a time trying to stay focused to write.

Today is now September 26-2021 and much has passed since I started this post.

So tonight is Sunday at the club. And its a descent night at the club for a Sunday. I have my normal count of at least 30 girls on rotation for a Sunday and the club is about halfway full. The ambiance in the room is calm. Last night was a bit of a busy Saturday so usually after a busy Saturday, the next night is usually a bit drained from the night before.

So what’s been going on in my life? Well, I think I spoke to soon when I said that things are taking a turn for the better. Things I “think” are getting better but not by much. However, somehow I must find the smallest needle size nugget in a bag of shit. Life will only get better if I keep pushing, keep adapting, keep learning, keep pivoting and never, never, never  ever give up.

Now…. Lets see if I can piece together the things that have been going on in my life….

Let’s start with shit that just doesn’t seem to want to get resolved. (Shit that is just like a bad reoccurring nightmare)

1. Transportation…. My car is still not fixed.
2. The apartments… The tenants moved out and I still have apt #3 where the tenant hasn’t paid rent in over 3 months. And apt #2 still isn’t finished.
3. Depression and the woman I love.
4. The deal to build houses is dead in the water.
5. Working on myself…. I’m now reading books again.
6. Hobbies…. I just added more

Those simple six things don’t seem like much when I look at it like this, but once I unpack each one of them, it turns out to be a whole new can of worms. A can of worms that I must turn into something positive for my life…. Let’s unpack.

Transportation…… Damn. I think… (not sure exactly) but it feels like its been almost two months since my car took a shit and the engine broke. And as of about 2 weeks ago, I finally got it into the shop and had the shop order a used engine. Since I had them order the engine, they were able to take out the old engine, but as of last week they were waiting for the used engine to arrive. and by best estimates, the engine will have about 115,000 miles on it. Which if the engine is good enough it should last “at least” one year. Which is enough time for me to get my truck up and running properly (fingers crossed) And speaking of my truck…. This Tuesday it goes to a shop called (4 wheel parts). It’s a shop that sells parts for lifted trucks and jeeps. A friend at work told me about this shop and that I could have them look at my truck to tell me what my truck needs….. Now in reality, I know many things that my truck needs, but because my truck has been sitting for almost over 10 years, I just need to make sure that certain parts and items of the truck will not break down once I can drive it on a regular basis.

My apartments…. Ugh.. This is also something that is taking a lot of mental space in my head. From Apt #1 that needs a minimal amount of work to be ready to be rented to my tenant in apt#3 that is just freeloading and choosing to not pay rent. So with apt#1 I am needing to get a texture guy out to fix a small part of the laundry room wall. Sadly I have been procrastinating to get this done. As I have been thinking about things in my life, I was wondering why it has taken me so long to get someone out there. And as it turns out, I have just not properly organized my life. Plus there is also the depression thing that still plagues me like a bad addiction. But as of a week or two ago, I sat down here at work and I began using the Eisenhower box to put my thoughts in order and make a list of what order that I should be doing things. Because as anyone that makes to-do lists knows…. Sometimes we can get overwhelmed with a laundry list of things and still not know where to begin. It’s one thing to have a list, but its a whole other thing to know what should be done first and in what order. And so when it comes to the apartments and how it is interlaced with all the other things in my life. I really needed to get clear on the importance of things in my life. And now that I have a descent understanding, as of about 2 or 3 days ago, I decided to start calling some texture guys and quickly realized that now a days it will probably work best to just take a photo of the project and then send that to each of the numbers and this will allow me to get a quote a lot faster. So my hope is that by the end of the week I will have settled on a  texture guy. Then there is the tenant in apt #3 that won’t pay rent. About 3 days ago the lawyer called while I was on my way to see the girl that has my heart. And the lawyer was ready to take my money and start the eviction process. It cost me almost $1300 and I had to put it on a credit card. Which is what I was trying not to do, but right now I seem to just be accumulating more debt than money. Then it wasn’t until yesterday when I learned that the lawyer had emailed me paper work that I need to sign and email back to them. Without this signed paperwork the lawyer can’t get the ball rolling to get this freeloader out. So when I get home in the morning, that will be one of the first things that I get done. And as for apt #2… It’s still just sitting there waiting for me to dump the money into it. And as much as I just want to throw money at it, I still have that damn transportation problem. I MUST ensure that I always have dependable transportation. this is a must! So I must now do multiple things in tandem.

Then there is the deal that I was making with Richard. Richard, back in June had come to my house and wanted to talk about my corner property. And now after almost 3 months of discussion, Richard and I worked out a deal where he was going to build 2 houses on my corner property and we would split the money 60/40. And Richard would take the larger part of the split. But then about 2 weeks ago, Richard and I sat down for lunch and he proceeded to tell me that he should take ALL of the profits from the selling of the two houses that he is going to build. He proceeded to tell me that he should take all of the profit because he is also going to help me build my 12 apartments and that he is giving me a steep discount on the construction of the 12 apartments and that he could just as easily buy some land and build some houses without me. And because he is taking a large hit on not getting his usual commission for building the apartments that I should just give him all of my corner property as well as any money that could have been mine after the construction and selling of the houses….. Now when he told me that, I in some small way understood his side of things, but…..for some reason things just didn’t sit right with me. So I decided to take a week to do my own internal soul searching. And at the same time I decided to visit a mortgage broker to get his view on the deal. And after much thinking and mental deliberation. I came up with a decision. And so last week, I met with Richard at one of the Mexican restaurants that him and I have visited before. And as we sat there, I don’t think Richard was ready for what I was about to tell him. We sat there and ordered a couple of frozen margaritas and he began to tell me some of the the hiccups that he is having on a couple of the lots where he is building some houses. I quietly sat and listened and after about 10 minutes he then began to tell me about the delay in moving forward with our (then) current deal. And after about 2 minutes into him talking about the corner property, I interrupted him and began telling him that I have been doing some thinking and that I just wasn’t comfortable with the deal. And as I was talking to him, I reached into my backpack and pulled out a paper bag (the size of what you would put sandwiches) And in that paper bag was wrapped and packed with a brick of $800. The money was all in one dollar bills. And I purposely gave it to him in one dollar bills. I wanted to ensure that when I gave him that paper bag that it gave a look of something important. And as I slid it over to his side of the table, I told him thank you. Thank you for giving me the inspiration needed to get back on track. I went on to tell him that I’ve decided to do things on my own. I told him that I will be going to the city offices later that day to look into what it will take to become a licensed home builder. What Richard doesn’t yet realize about me is that I have no problem doing things on my own. Sadly it’s not the way I want to do things, especially because in reality, life really works best as a team, but when all else fails sometimes you have to trailblaze alone. I have only ME to depend on. And even more, concerning my 4plex, in the past, I have had to hire an engineer, I have had to hire builders and framers, texture guys, sheetrock guys, painters, tile people, electrical people…. I have had to hire almost everybody. And more than that, I even built my own house from scratch. And a lot of it I did myself. So I am not scared to find all the contractors necessary to build a house. As a matter of fact, the only thing that really had me scared was that I did not know where to go to get the money to build the houses. And worse, My mind was set on finishing the building that is currently on the property. But after talking to my mortgage guy, he along with the conversations that Richard and I had, I was able to see that I needed to restructure my thinking about how to obtain my 12 apartments…… Follow me for a minute…. Currently the corner property has an unfinished 3 plex. And if I put almost $100,000 (which I in no way have) into that building, then I can have 3 rents coming in every month…. But if I tear that building down and build 2 houses then I can make about $200,000 in cash profit (or more) and then I can put that in the bank and then I can borrow against that to build 4 apartments. Then once those are built and I get a mortgage on it, I can then reuse that money and borrow against it again to build another 4 apartments. Basically it will be rinse, recycle , and repeat. And so my concern for so many years was finding money to finish the corner property But after having Richard in my life, he gave me inspiration to go and visit the mortgage guy and thru the both of them I have been able to restructure my thinking to better understand financing that I have not been able to properly grasp…. I have always heard that you need money to make money, but I was never willing to really sit down and see how to make money from the corner property. But now after Richard and the mortgage broker, I can see that 2 houses can net me enough money to build 4 brand new apartments…. apartments that wont have any worries (remodel wise) for at least 10 years.

Now how did I specifically come to the conclusion of going without Richard? Well, besides the catalyst of him wanting ALL the profits, it was the mortgage broker that said, he can find me the funding to build. And this particular broker was the same person who found me the hard money lender that I used to get my last property. The mortgage broker went on to say that he knows hard money lenders that will lend me the money to build the houses. But that first, I would need to get my contractors license to build homes.

Now lets get back to Ricard and the margaritas. So after telling Richard this news, I could tell that he was recalculating the situation. And by the second margarita he was telling me that our initial deal was not written in stone and was simply just an option and that I have full control on how I want things to be. And by the 3rd margarita, He said that we can make the deal 70/30. Where 70 is in my favor and that he can even do some things for free….. All of this sounded nice, Especially since the original deal was 60/40 and I was only going to get 40%. However, once I take time to really think about a decision, I typically don’t change my mind. (That is both a good and bad quality) And some of the factors that helped me make my decision was the simple fact that in combination of building my own house and the buying and remodeling of the 4plex, I have dealt with the city on multiple levels from code compliance officers, to inspections officers, to rezoning where I had to hire engineers, and speaking in front of the zoning commission as well as going to board meetings from my city council etc. Then add in all the contractors that I have hired and talked to…. Pshhhhh. As the hood nigger in me would say….. Bitch please! I got this. It sure as hell ain’t gonna be easy. But I’m already going thru hell. I might as well keep going.

After I thought about all those things that I have done and the people that I have dealt with over the last 10 years in the city realm for real estate, I am definitely someone that is not scared to talk to people. Again, my only biggest hurdle was about funding….funding was always the biggest problem. Then the second was that I was headstrong on just trying to remodel the corner property rather than redevelop it. But because of Richard, I was now much more inclined to tearing down the building and rebuilding two houses on the property. And add that during my conversation with my mortgage broker, he was able to get thru my thick skull, that I would be more powerful with having money in the bank….He said that when it comes to building the 12 apartments that I am going to have to have money in the bank. That without money in the bank that it is going to be almost impossible to get someone to lend me money to build the apartments. But with money in the bank, that I can then use that as collateral to get the loans necessary to build the apartments. So with that in mind and with the fact that in the beginning Richard was always very adamant that when it was going to be time to build the apartments that I would be able to use the equity in the apartments to get a loan for them. Again, all this is about acquiring funding to build a minimum of 4 apartments which when built will be worth almost $700,000. So with that in mind, after Richard told me several weeks ago that he should just keep all the money from the two houses because he was going to help me build the apartments, that’s when my spidy ears tingled and I just didn’t’ like the smell of things. You see, it’s going to cost about $150k to build a house and I will be able to fit two skinny houses on my corner property. And I will be able to sell each house for upwards of $300k each. Which means that if I would have let Richard keep everything from the redevelopment of my corner property, then he would have walked away with almost $300k within 9 months! Again, that just didn’t smell right…. So that’s where I just made the decision that I will get my builders license (the cost of about $4,500) And then I will find the money to build, then I will start calling contractors, and I may even go to Cesar (my guy that has built houses in the past) And I am sure that thru him I can find most of the contractors that I will need. And in the end, instead of me allowing Richard to make $300k, I instead will make $300k and then after that I will have the money in the bank necessary to get a loan to build my first 4 apartments. And with that I will already know everyone necessary to get the job done. Now remember, I never said this was going to be easy…. But then again…. if something is really easy, will we really notice it’s worth?

Now back to that 3rd margarita with Richard. I was still very loving and caring after I gave him the money (which I did not have to give him) Rather I gave him the money because I truly believe in Karma. And if there is anything that I deeply need in my life right now (other than the woman that has my heart)…. Is good Karma. I must ensure that as my life moves forward that I become the man that people will ALWAYS respect. And so with Richard, he did spend about $200 on some paperwork with the city and he also spent some time making a few phone calls, so to me I felt that it was only fair that I give him some money for his time and the money that he spent. Now how did I determine that $800 was a good amount? Well, I originally wanted to give him $1000. I wanted to give him $1000 because to me $1000 is a good nice round number that is not too much and its also not chump change. But sadly I just have too many bills and reevaluated things and decided on $800, which in my opinion is still a great thing. To me it shows that I care about relationships. Because behind every relationship is a human being. So throughout the rest of our luncheon Richard did his best to try and sway me back to having him do the build. I think we sat there for almost 3 hours, which at lest 2.5 hours was the conversation about my having made my decision. I even told Richard that I respect him deeply and that even though I am not going to have him do the build, that I still do need help, and that if he is open to the idea, that I would happily pay him to mentor me on process. I told him that I could meet with him once a week, and that I would buy him lunch and that I would pay him $100 for each time that we met. This way it hopefully would be something that both parties could benefit from. Richard in turn said that he would do it for free, but remember, Richard is trying to move the needle back to our original deal. But I told him as kind as possible that our deal is now dead in the water. So will I see Richard again? Well before I answer that question, its important to know that later that night I went to bed early, and as I was laying in bed, Richard called me. This was very unexpected. Richard had never done that. And in the phone call Richard proceeded to pitch me a new deal. after about 10 minutes of him pitching the deal, I told him that I was already in bed and that we can meet up next week and talk. But for me, even if we meet up, I’ve already made my decision. So will I see Richard again? honestly I don’t know. I may see him this coming week, but after that I may never see him again. Richard is truly a nice man. And I don’t think he was trying to be mean, but rather I think he was just trying to be business. He was just trying to make the maximum money possible. And on top of that I am sure that he told all his painters, framers, cement guys etc., that there was going to be a lot of work for the next year. (building the two houses and then building 12 apartments) and now that all that has been scrapped. Richard will now have to go back to his guys and say that there will not be as much work as expected. At least this is my thinking. We’ll see what happens here in the near future. I am personally hoping that I stay friends with Richard. I would like to have as many friends in real estate as possible.

The depression….. this is really the toughest part of my life. As you may have read in previous posts, I have done about 8 treatments of ketamine, and I found those to be extremely helpful to my depression. And in reality, my depression currently stems from the fact that I am deeply head over heels for a woman that does not feel the same for me. She finds me to be a nice person, and she loves my money, but sadly she “probably” loves my money more than she cares to see me. I am so head over heels with this girl that I literally think about her daily. And worse, whenever I am near her, and at least for me, life feels perfect. I truly enjoy all my time with her. And so when ever she becomes the damsel in distress because something is needing to be purchased or fixed, it is usually I that comes to the rescue. And over the last year and several months, she has not shown that she really wants to cultivate anything meaningful with me, but she is very willing to call me at other points in her life. But at the same time she is very open to cultivating relationships with others. And so this feelings of mine about caring for her and helping her and her not caring to sacrifice for me sadly has me mentally twisted. And so I have been trying to not feel so depressed without her in my life. And every time I try to do that, my depression just gets worse. And so instead, I have been trying to write in my mind a new program…. I keep telling myself….”my next lifetime”…. My next lifetime. That’s when I will finally get to spend my time with someone that I consider to be my soulmate. My next lifetime. I even began to read books on relationships and dating in hopes to help me deal with my feelings and to find ways to move forward. And over the last few weeks I had not heard from her. And I guess because I have not heard from her, I have begun the ability to start the “out of sight, out of mind”. And  as much as I so deeply wish that would never happen, I just have to be ok with losing something that really means the world to me. Sadly it really makes me hate God. I just can’t and don’t think that I will ever understand why God allowed her to be in my life and yet only tease me with someone that I find to be so special to me. Just one of the saddest parts of my life.

So … like I mentioned I had not heard from her for a few weeks. Then out of the blue (just recently) she texted me and said that she wanted to see me. So we met up and spent the afternoon together, we went to do some indoor skydiving and then went to the tallest part of town and ate a late lunch. Afterwards I drove her back home and spent time at her apartment. Towards the end something just felt off. I couldn’t tell what it was. But by the morning, things just weren’t right. She just didn’t feel the same as me. And that unfortunately made me make a decision that to this moment cuts my heart to pieces and that I hope will not last forever. Remember, this woman means the world to me. But when you give and give and never get reciprocation, you eventually get tired of feeling so empty. And so as I thought about things, I feel empty when she is not near, and I feel empty when she doesn’t want to reciprocate, so I made the decision to send her a super long text and told her that we won’t be communicating anymore. Even to this moment, just thinking about never seeing her just breaks my heart. I constantly pray that if there is a God, and if God has any mercy that he would give mercy to me and that she would eventually truly miss me, and truly care to have me in her life, and in a way that I also need.

So since the last time that I saw her, I have been sinking back into depression. But I must find some hope to remain strong. I must remember that if she really cares that she will find a way to fight to keep me in her life. Otherwise, if she doesn’t care then I must find a way to look for someone that will care about me and want a future with me.. This is a very difficult thing because “love” in itself has the power to easily ruin a human. But also at the same time, “love” can give someone the inspiration to work harder than they have ever thought was possible…… I just hope that god doesn’t hurt me for long. Getting to my first million takes almost every ounce of energy in me. And with the feeling of emptiness, it just makes it that much harder to have a reason to push myself to those things that I am trying to believe are possible.

Working on myself…..

Man, this life or idea of working on myself, is turning out to be a life long project. Even in the book “the 7 habits of highly effective people” Steven Covey says that the last step to being a highly effective person is to “continually sharpen the saw”… Continually revisit things that you have already learned and see how you can improve all areas of your life. And so for me, I am now feeling like I am juggling more things in my life than I ever have before. And the weirdest part is that half of my brain is having a hard time seeing that my life is difficult. For some reason a part of my brain looks at my life and says….. Easy. no problem. business as usual….. But then the other side of my mind says… “Dude, you’ve never done this before, what the fuck are you doing? Can you really do it? why are you doing it? who are you doing it for? And most of all, Is all of this pain and growth really satisfying you?”

And sadly, and currently, the answer is No….No none of this is currently satisfying me. You see humans #1 need in life is significance. Significance is deeply important to me. It actually gives me a reason to live, to breathe, to push and to become more of who I am. And so for some reason even though one side of my brain says that all these challenges and hurdles are a piece of cake, the other side of my brain is having the hardest time finding a reason to actually do them. And that…. that right there is where the disconnect is located. At some point I must find a “belief” a belief that reconnects the half of me that looks at my life as a piece of cake, and weld it to the “significance”.

So recently as I have been in and out of depression, I have finally decided to start reading some books again. Except that this time instead of books on management, business, and leadership, I have decided to read books on relationships and dating. Now why have I chosen to read books on these subjects? Well the answer is easy. Beyond the fact that I came from a single mother household, besides the fact that I come from poverty, and besides the fact that I had no Positive role models in my life, The reason that I have chosen to read on these subjects is because I can now just feel within me that I am ready to have someone in my life. I am ready to enjoy this journey of life with someone who also wants the same path from life. And thru my depression and my battle with loneliness and the woman that I love, and with the fact of my own age, I have learned that I have never really learned how to have a “positive” relationship. Rather, instead, I have been in the strip club for over 20 years and all I have dated for the last two decades are women that I have shared the club life with and by all aspects, I would have to say that probably 99% of these women have also never truly learned how to have a positive relationship. And to add deeper thought to the subject, I figure to guess that probably over 70% of non strip club women also have never read books on how to have positive relationships. Now how do I know this? Simple… If in reality most men and women read about how to have positive relationships, then there would more than likely be much less divorces and much less children in single family households.

So yea….. I’m going to make it a mission to read a minimum of 10 books on dating and relationships. So far I’ve read almost 7 books…..I’ve read “5 love languages” by Gary Chapman, “Relationship Goals” by Michael Todd, “The Unplugged Alpha” By Rich Cooper, “Tactical Guide To Women” By Shawn Smith, “The Game – Pick Up Artists” by Neil Strauss, “The Mystery Method – Pick Up Artist” by Eric Von…, and now I’m reading “How to be a 3% Man” by Corey Wayne.

Most of these books I’ve read 3 times. And the goal is to read all of them a minimum of 3 times. And so far my favorite books were 5 love languages and the unplugged alpha. The 5 love languages is really great on helping to understand how (or in what form) to give love to your partner. While the other book, the unplugged alpha is EXTREMELY helpful in understanding the interactions of how a woman views the the male gender and how “alpha” men differ from “beta” men and how women give less respect and love to beta men. The other books were and are also helpful. But I have yet to digest them properly. I say all of this with one exception…. “Relationship Goals” by Michael Todd was my least favorite. It was my least favorite, because anyone that has read my posts can clearly see that I believe in a higher power, but with Michael Todd’s book, he makes a very clear point that for himself, he just doesn’t see it possible to have a relationship with a woman if God is not first…. As in you cannot have a relationship with a woman if God is not before everything in your relationship. And for me, I’m not looking for a book that is subliminally telling me to go to church and that I will be condemned to purgatory if I don’t look at god every moment of my life. Instead I’m looking for books on how to understand the female gender and how to effectively capture the heart of any woman that I deem worthy of sharing space in my life and I hers respectively. Plus I want books to teach me tips and concepts of how the mind of a woman works. And sadly Michael’s Todd’s book was more of an autobiography of his own relationship with his wife….. that he met at the age of 15. And also his journey thru his ministry to becoming a successful pastor….. All in all, good book for church goers, just not for me.

So working on myself is definitely a journey which leads to my last subject…..

Hobbies…..

In becoming the best version of me possible, I started taking pilot classes about 6 months ago but stopped about 3 months ago. That’s when the depression set in really bad. I just couldn’t find the where with all to go to class. Learning to fly a plane is NOT hard, but it is super memory intensive. Like heavy memory intensive. There are times that I would go to class and by the end of two hours I would literally be mentally drained. To the point that my brain felt like mashed potatoes. But now that I am slowly coming out of my depression, I recently went back to the owner of the school and talked to him about going back to class. By the looks of when I last texted my pilot teacher, he said that if I only put minimal effort towards the class, that it would take me about 6 months to finish the class. Which in the end is just more money, because every minute in the plane costs money. But much like my skydiving, I just take my time to learn certain things. So here soon I will be contacting my teacher and scheduling time to get the lessons. And at the same time I’ve decided to pick up another class (maybe hobby?). I’m not sure what to call it. But what I will say is that after reading “The Unplugged Alpha”, I got the deep sense that I should learn some form of self defense. And luckily most of my life I have kept myself out of many fights. Growing up in the hood, finding a fight is like SUPER EASY. But now as I am looking to explore how to be my best Alpha, I’ve decided that I am going to take some Muay Thai classes. And to be honest, I’m just not a fighter, I am more of a lover. But with all things in life, we must be our best selves possible. So recently I decided to look on the internet for the best types of martial arts/self defense to learn. And Muay Thai and Brazilian Jiujitsu seemed to be ranked as some of the best. With Muay Thai ranking the best of the two.

So I looked up on google reviews for the best Muay Thai in my city. and in the end I went to both gyms and after a week I finally settled on the one that I felt the most comfortable. And it turns out that this Muay Thai gym has two locations in my city. So my next decision was how to schedule my life to incorporate this into my already busy life.

Now I just gotta stop that train of thought for a moment to make a very steep point… I am literally packing my schedule, from exercise time at Planet fitness, to a minimum of 8 to 10 hours of sleep, to eating, to working on the real estate, to flying a plane, to planning for the unexpected like things like fixing my truck and doing the mundane chores of washing clothes or arranging things at home, and now to Muay Thai classes, and some how trying to find time go out on “meet ups”. And all though I have not yet made a schedule that makes all this work, I still look at all this and say to myself….. “I still feel empty”. Ain’t that weird, I just still feel empty.

Picture this…. A man, working at a strip club, in his spare time is working to build apartments, and at the same time remodel his current apartments, and still finds time to go the the gym to exercise, goes to class to fly a plane, takes time to go skydiving, and amongst all the usual chores of eating, sleeping and keeping a house in order, he is still making time for other things like Muay Thai classes and is also now working to become a licensed home builder and still somehow finding time to be a grease monkey so that he can get his truck as a dependable means of transportation. And all the while…. amongst all those things….. he just still feels empty. still feels life boring and not interesting or worth any joy….

So what’s the goal with packing my life with more hobbies? Honestly, I don’t know. I just really don’t know. Instead what I do know is that the hope is that the pilot class will allow me to have more freedom in the future. More freedom to travel at will. And at the same time, by biggest joy with getting a pilot’s license is to tell my mom that we are going to lunch and then drive her to the airport and fly her to another city for lunch. And another great joy that I envision would be the day that I find someone special in my life, and I get to surprise her by also taking her to dinner, but not telling her where we are going or how we are going to get there. I think it would be a beautiful site to watch a sunset from 10,000 feet in a plane as I fly her to dinner in another city or state. To me the joy of a pilots license is definitely not in the learning of how to fly a plane or even the idea of flying a plane, instead the joy comes from the memories that I can create with the people I love as I take them to places that create a whole different feel for life. And as for the Muay Thai, Well for that one, it’s more of me Max, creating self belief in himself. Self belief that whatever comes at me, that I can conquer it. That I Max am a winner.

Wish me luck.

Until next time…….And always remember, Hopefully when your day is getting sad, candy starts to rain on you.

Love,

Max.