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Starting a productive day sometimes can be uber difficult. Not because productivity is difficult, but instead because if you don’t prep, then from the jump, from the beginning, your already behind and or already lost.

Today’s date…. Sunday May 05-2019 The time….11:08pm. The place….. The club in Austin.

This is Maxwell Stone and this is my journey to a million and beyond. Last week…… well, last week was last week, and this week is a whole new set of things, items, thoughts, feelings, and emotions,  that I can mentally see that I am not doing well enough and or need to work on.

So let’s dive in….. I think that I am going to start with what one of the girls told me a few hours ago… She said that she had booked a $250 ticket to go scuba diving with the humpback whales at the island of Tonga and watch some of them give birth. Tonga is where many of them go to breed and give birth to their children…………When I heard those words, the little guy that lives in my brain mentally fell out of his chair and said WTF……. scuba diving…. humpback whales… Tonga????  WTF? WOW. That’s fucking uber cool. That like totally talks to the inner me. the inner child in me that believes that this world is a friendly place. The inner me that believes that God meant for me to see him in every facet of all his creations.

I couldn’t help but to ask for more information. And as I thought about it, I made sure to write it down to research it, and something in me, just really thinks that I should, in my lifetime, share a moment with the humpback whales. Just imagine being part of God in that way. Makes me smile.

OK, so what else is happening or has happened this week. Well let’s kinda run thru the list and then maybe touch back on some things…. First, I got what I call “rested” sleep last night. That literally made my day!!!! It only took multiple times of waking up, multiple times of tossing and turning, and also about 8.5 hours of being in bed. I wished I wouldn’t have had to come to work, because I probably would have allowed myself to truly and deeply feel the enjoyment of my body in stress free mode and I could have taken time to feel the connection of my mind to body. Somehow I believe there is a certain amount of healing in those moments (when harnessed correctly). Sadly though, I slept so long that I didn’t have time to meditate. I was almost late to work. Thank god for the toll road and the fact that it is Sunday. I was able to allow my motorcycle do what it was created to do….. I did about 120mph almost the whole stretch of land, a little over a hundred plus miles of highway, all the way to work.

On the tough side, I have 2 code enforcement officers meeting with me in less than 12 hours. (Remember at the time of this writing, it’s Sunday night) One of the code officer’s is the guy who gave me a ticket for overgrown grass, while the other guy is his boss. I’ve decided that if I am truly going to “try” (I’m not a perfect person) but damnit, if I am going to try and be a better person each and every day of my life, and I mean, a person that is better than the day before, then I have decided to begin to push back against life. I decided that I will not be scared to tell these people that give me tickets, that they MUST meet with me. I must find ways to inject the core of who I am onto these people. I must find ways to get them to help me and not hinder me. Life is about finding help and growing. Some call it taking risks, David Goggins would call it, kicking in doors and letting them know you are here and ready. If you don’t grow balls then you eventually get ran over by someone else who grew theirs.

This week will be the last week of me seeing the hypnotist. Honestly, I have really mixed feelings about whether or not the money I spent was worth it. I have now spent over a thousand dollars on this guy. And the question is this….have I seen or felt results???? Truthfully, I am just not sure. Is it me? Is it him? Should I have seen someone different? Do I really need a hypnotist? Will it take time for me to understand my visits with him? These are just questions that I currently do not have answers to at the moment. However, he is just more expensive than I initially expected, and is just out of my price range to keep searching my answers with him. In the future, I may look for a different hypnotist. We’ll see.

Other things in my life…. Well, something basic. I finally got me a new phone. I’ve been using a Galaxy S5 and over the years, and after all the app updates and the way in which I expect to use a phone, it was on its last leg. I sadly needed to upgrade to a new phone. So I bit the bullet and purchased a new phone. The good and the bad is that I have taken on more bills (that’s the bad) and the good is that I am trying to find new mental ways to have the self belief that I will…. no wait…. That I am creative enough to make new ways to get thru this part of my life (bills and all) and still grow financially as well as mentally and spiritually.

This last week has been tough because I am having to redo the apartment #2. The tenant left it in bad shape and as I said in the last post it needs the next to last injection of remodeling. And as for apartment #1 I had to stop work on the outside because here in San Antonio it has rained all week long and so sadly it too is still not ready…. But damn is it close. The inside is actually ready (minus one final $120 cleaning) But the outside needs some painting and power washing. After my meeting tomorrow morning, I look forward to getting it completely finished this week and by next Monday put it on the market. Which means that it will be ready for the June market.

Then there is this guy that I now have help me at my house. He is currently my enigma replacement. The good is that this guy doesn’t do drugs, but the drawback is that he is not as fast as my enigma and somehow, in his own way,  he also doesn’t see things in quite the way I want them to be completed and or doesn’t properly understand my instructions, or somehow (and I don’t know why) but he takes the long way to get something done that could have been done in a shorter time frame. I would love to say that he can’t see my vision, but the reality is that either I have not done a good enough job of laying out my vision/plan and or I am expecting too much from him. This is something that I will work on for the next 6 months in order to do a better job of understanding myself as a person who lays out a vision/plan and him as a worker. Currently I only have him 2 days a week. Which is perfect to help me get a little work done but not have him there too much in case he does more “busy” work than “productive” work.

Then there is the company picnic (my company picnic for the girls) this is something that I do for the girls that work for me. One day I look forward to explaining my life as an employee in detail, but for now lets just focus on the future, but yes, this company picnic is a way of me giving back to those that are kind enough to give to me….. And I’ll tell ya, man it is right around the corner and my dog ears are up and I can feel myself in a sense of heightened awareness. (Simply because there is so much that I must have prepared and purchased for the event) I have begun the preliminary steps. I first needed to find a dunk machine, and also make sure that the park allows me to have a dunk machine. (This was something that I did not know would be a question to ponder). Then after I found the “yes” that I was looking for in order to have a dunk machine at a park, the next question was….Will the park let me use their water to fill it. The dunk rental place said that some parks say “No” to dunk machines because of the water usage. This was a major concern for me, since I had it set in my mind that I was going to do a dunk machine for this picnic. (Just the thought of participating in the dunking process will make it a great memory for everyone) Remember….. no one will always remember what you did, and no one will always remember what you said….. But EVERYONE will always remember how you made them feel. And so to me, with this dunk machine, the idea is to create memories that you can feel.

So yeah, this week I went to the party rental place and paid for the dunk machine and the next day I called the parks department and rented the pavilion as well as hammer out the concerns with the dunk machine and the water usage. I also created the flyers for the event and sent them to the printers and paid for the flyers. However, I have a concern with the flyers and their conversion of colors from RGB to CMYK. So I will need to call the printers on Monday to ensure that it gets corrected and that I still get them before or by Friday before work.

Other than that there are just things like “procrastination” and “consistency” that I can see that I am not yet proficient in. and those 2 things really have me bothered. Somehow I WILL and MUST kill those 2 things from my life. For example, I haven’t written in my weekly planner, I haven’t made my bed for the last 2 days. I have secretly not wanted to look at my bills and see when they are due. (I must change that) I haven’t taken my vitamins consistently, and although I went to the gym this Friday for 20 minutes, what that means is that last Friday and this Friday I went to the gym, but between last Friday and this Friday, I have not been to the gym. And beyond the gym, for some reason because my bills now feel astronomical, I have this little extra monkey on my back that has me worried about my job. IDK, maybe it’s a good thing, maybe it’s a bad thing, but either way I must mentally get a handle on it. How can I allow myself to worry about keeping a job when I haven’t even yet made my first million. (This will be solved in the near future)

Somehow I know there is a formula that will allow me to get from my current life to my specific goals of my future life. I somehow can feel it on my doorstep. All I gotta do is pick it up.  I know that somehow there are shortcuts, and I know that somehow WORK MUST also be done, I can’t get things done without doing some work. But the balance between work and shortcuts must be found. I MUST become someone who is internally and naturally grateful for every moment of my life (Regardless of how shitty of a life I feel that I have had) I know that I must remain optimistic, I must also see that if there is a will, then there is a way….. And for the most part of all.. I get it. I understand it, however, rooting out, erasing, and flushing out every bad and un-useful habit is not hard, it’s not about physical work, instead it is like this……

It’s like seeing a rainbow after a rain and trying to find the exact point of where the rainbow begins and where the rainbow ends. When what instead I should do is to not notice the physical spot on earth where the rainbow begins, but instead, to realize that the rainbow is made from the storm that came before the rainbow. And that it’s Gods way of saying, storm is over.

So don’t look for the rainbow, instead look for the storm, and in the storm, smile knowing that the rainbow is coming.

That’s what I must do.

Love,

Max.