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It’s Friday @ the club. I stepped on the controls about 30 minutes ago and my mentality to want to be here is crappy. I’m not sure exactly why I feel this way. This week has proven to be more productive than the week prior. Sadly maybe it’s just personal things that are playing repeat in the back of my head or maybe it bugs me because I have no way to change personal events that have occurred. Idk, who knows. What ever it is, I gotta shake it. Soon my boss is going to walk in here and all the other employees are going to jump and finally begin to walk around as if they have all the while been doing their job and then my boss is going to be looking for things that aren’t going right. And he will be pointing out just about every flaw that he can find. Now is this a bad thing. In of itself, its important for us to wipe out all things that need refinement and better not just ourselves but the environment as well. But notice the way I portrayed the feeling of him walking in and seeing things around him. That’s where I think the rub is. But I’ll save that whole thought for another post. What’s important is for me to record my emotions, they’re not bad, but they’re not great either.

Today before work I made sure to write in my gratitude journal and in my small wins journal. I’m not sure if the writing in them before work will produce any quick effects to change my mentality. I’m sure that consistency is what I need when it comes to writing in them in order to maintain an amazing attitude needed to attain an amazing and richly fulfilled life.

What has been accomplished this week? Obviously not as much as I wanted, however, a few hours at apartment #01 was done, I also had a plumber come and start the work on my upstairs bathrooms. It’s been about 7 years since I started work on those upstairs bathrooms and I haven’t finished the water lines or sewer lines to my upstairs bathroom. It’s been cumbersome to say the least, but this week things have begun. What’s held me back from getting those bathrooms finished? Simply money and the mentality that I should allocate money to finishing my own personal bathrooms when I have rental properties that need major work. But somehow, I just can’t take it anymore. I’m just tired of living in a half built house. I’m tired of it not feeling like home.  Every time I come home it just feels like more work. And somehow that “feeling” actually affects my desire and motivation to get things done. But I digress.

So a plumber came by this week to begin (or continue where I left off) on the upstairs plumbing. Then this week I also had a cleaning guy come again to my house. I could see a good feeling come over me when I walked in and saw things cleaned and organized. Now to be truthful, it may not be ergonomically organized but it at least had a sense of organization. Definitely something that I need in order to allow me to feel better.

That’s pretty much it. Not quite as much as I would have liked for 7 days worth of being alive. And not to mention one of those days was a 24 hour day. But it’s better than last week. I can only hope that this coming week will be amazingly better. As for work here in Austin? Time for me to try and smile and fake the shit out of this night.

Wish me luck.

Max