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Max here,

Lets dive in…… It’s a Sunday, at the club in Austin, the time 1:40am, the date….04/08/19

Last night was a tough night. Work at the club in itself can be very stressful. And last night proved to be one of those nights….. I chose not to go into details because I still work here, but in time, when I no longer work here, I will have no qualms about spilling the events and how I felt. What I will say is that at my work I sit in front of 2 computers, and work with 3 other DJ’s. And about 6 months ago one of the DJ’s left. And last night I had a major computer issue that caused the party to stop for about 5 minutes. And as a DJ (at least me) the party is to never stop until it’s over. So because there was a computer issue, I had (personally chose) to stay after work to do some diagnostic on the computer and in the end I am going to have to take another night after work to do more detailed investigation (take apart the computer etc)  And so last night, I got home late. And not to mention that it was a cold and rainy pre dawn morning on my motorcycle ride home. And the rain…. well… the rain was the kind that causes flooding on the highway, and that causes the cars to use their hazard lights as they drive. In other words…. It just took even way longer for me to get home, and I had to find extra energy to stay focused after a long night at work, just so I can make it home safe. I was so frustrated… Work and a shitty ride home.. Now as I come to think about it, (when I got home) I was living in the past. It’s a straight Joe Dispenza scenario….Instead of being elated that I got home, I was pissed and angry that I and my clothes were literally soaked from waste down, shoes, socks and all. Instead of being happy to see my dog, I stayed mentally at work, frustrated from a long night and from the rain. What I should have done was to get in the moment of being at home and that everything was now in the past, but instead I let it haunt me, then I straight into predicting my future by mentally telling myself that I was not going to get enough sleep.

And what happened next? I went to bed upset. I didn’t sleep well, and when I drove to work today, I left my house as late as possible, but luckily made it to work on time, but I also didn’t suit up well enough, So half of my drive to work was a cold ride, to the point that my bones, not body, but I could feel my core of my body freezing. Not a good thing, that could easily get me sick, and I don’t have time to be sick. And all this led me to being frustrated and short with people at work. Which just means that I was bringing baggage to work that didn’t need to come with me. And where did all this stem from? It stemmed from the way in which I decided to tell the story about my night and the story that I decided to tell myself about my future. This led me to have a very tough start at work. After a while I remembered that I am about building relationships. It’s something that I don’t see done much at work.  So I went back and had conversations with people and tried to work on ensuring that I created a bridge of understanding.

I even had a conversation with someone who has potential but can’t see it in themselves. This conversation was very enlightening, at least for me it was. It was enlightening because I could see so much, and I mean sooooooo much, it was enlightening because I could see myself want to interject my thoughts constantly during the conversation. Now why did I want to keep interjecting my thoughts? Well, because I want to help, I could see limiting beliefs in almost every sentence that this person said about their life and themselves. You see, the reality is this…. The exact words that we say about our life is exactly what our life becomes. If you say that you can’t do something, then I promise that you won’t ever be able to do whatever that something is.

Now as I was listening to this person, I had to keep reminding myself to just shut up, “Don’t talk Max, don’t interject, just listen”. Jeffery Gitomer said that a person usually interjects in less than 17 seconds into someone talking, which I decided to be aware of whenever I was talking to to this person, and you know what? he is right, sometimes I wanted to interject just after 5 seconds or less. So back to the conversation that I was having with this person. I literally had to sometimes mentally count to ensure that I waited at least 17 seconds or longer in order to allow them to convey their complete thought or idea. Once I even did what I should ALWAYS do. I waited until this person got quiet and had nothing left to say.

It was just enlightening on so many levels, from working on the practice of keeping my mouth shut, to seeing all of the limiting beliefs that this person CHOOSES to believe about their themselves. And things that made it so enlightening, is that I too carried and used to believe many of those limiting beliefs. And I still have many limiting beliefs that I still need to rid my mid of, I could also see in this person how those limiting beliefs affect their ability to live life to the fullest. It’s just horrible. The reality is this, limiting beliefs just cripple someone. Literally! Fom the inside out.

So after my conversation with this person, I somehow felt really good, the night was no longer bad. Maybe it is seeing someone worse than you that makes someone feel better. Hopefully not, but I will need to do some thinking on this. Now to be honest, before my conversation with this person, my night was already moving into a positive direction. Remember I had talks with the people that I was short with, and this allowed me to re-frame my night and begin to hit the reset button from the night before.

Now what’s on the horizon….. Well…..Apartment #01 of course. It’s still not rented yet…. Monday is upon us and I gotta see how much closer my worker is to having the apartment ready. I will be reaching out to him on Monday. And then there is my other worker, the enigma who is hooked on drugs…. oddly enough last week, I had written down in my to do list to go to a local Victory Outreach church to see if I can find a replacement for my enigma. As we all know my enigma is just not dependable and unknowingly breaks my tools, not on purpose, but the drugs hinder him from properly understanding directions. Although he makes what I call a great mule. just straight heavy labor. ie: digging, breaking things etc. Painfully he is 38, and will not be able to that type of work for much longer. It’s just sad to see what he is not yet able to realize about the life that he will live in the future. (really saddens me) But somehow I MUST remember, this blog is about my life, my journey to a million, my journey to attaining my dreams, and one of the toughest changes for me to do is to realize that I have been tolerating his behavior in hopes that he will want better for his life, but the reality is that he “would like” better in his life, but until God intervenes, he will never REALLY want change in his life. And I have been tolerating his actions and by tolerating his actions I am crippling my own progress in my own life. I must find ways to cut everything that is stunting me from true progress. (Which is probably why I named this blog “the chronicles to a million”

And so on what seems out of the blue, a friend named Metal Mike, told me that he has a friend that lives in my area and that his friend would be open to doing some part time work for me. This was definitely not something that I was expecting to hear. It’s like God threw me a bone. Now, what will this person be like? Will he be dependable? Will he have knowledge? Will he even work for me? The truth is I just don’t know, which is why on Tuesday I am going to the church to see if I might be able to find someone trustworthy enough to do work for me. Now maybe the Victory Outreach church is not the best place to start, but I must put myself out there to at least to go and look. And I don’t want to do Craigslist, at least not yet. I’ve done Craigslist before and I wasn’t completely happy with the results. I want to try different avenues before I put another ad on the internet.

Now what else am I doing? Well this Tuesday I have a meeting with the hypnotist. My hopes is that the hypnotist will help me to begin stripping my own limiting beliefs, one at a time. The more that I can picture my future in my mind, and the more that I can change habits that are not pushing me to my goals then the quicker that I can live the life that I want and also hopefully in time, also help others find dreams that they forgot was possible. The funny thing about this hypnotist thing, is that 99% of the reason that I want to see him is to change mental thinking and change mental habits. But I will also ask him to help me remember the 2 only times that I saw my father. Now that I text with my sister on a daily basis, I want deeply to try and see where I came from. You see, growing up I never talked to my mother’s side of the family. and because I didn’t really know my father, I never talked to my fathers side of the family. I just recently (thru text) met my cousin, and saw multiple photos of my aunt. unbeknownst to me she was almost 6ft tall. (I think that is uber cool). Who knew that my aunt was that tall. And I never really knew if I truly had an aunt. My mom sparing said that my father said he had a sister, but my mom never met her, so she, herself, wasn’t sure if my father actually had a sister. And oddly enough my cousin… He lives in Florida. Who would have thought eh. The same state that I want to move to. But yeah… hypnotist. This will be my first time. I’ll keep you updated on how things turn out. Well, I’ve got to wrap this post up and prep for the rest of today. I haven’t decided if I will go to sleep when I get home or if I will try and stay awake until 6pm or later. Currently my energy level feels at about 60%. But hopefully when I get home, with enough coffee, I can push through the hump of staying awake long enough to do a couple of errands and write down some things to set a direction of what should be done on Tuesday. Oh I also have a neighborhood meeting on Tuesday. My 4plex is not located in the best part of town (But then again, most of San Antonio is not the best part of town) and so I feel that being part of a neighborhood association will allow me to try and leverage power from the people in the neighborhood and hopefully find ways to get the most from my 4plex and the people that live in the area.

Well, like I said, it’s time for me to begin to wrap things up here at the club and on this post, otherwise I will have to carry the writing of this post over to another day. Not something I want to do. I gotta learn to understand time frames and be diligent to discipline.

With great love,

Max.