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Max here with another post…..

I’m still licking my internal wounds. It’s still painful. This is my 3rd consecutive day of writing. This will either be short post or I will chunk this into a larger post. So the reason I am writing today is because ever since my court loss, I began reading a book named “The One Thing” it was recommended to me as I was reading thru Tim Ferris’ 5 bullet Friday email. I enjoy reading his 5 bullet Friday’s because they are short and pretty much to the point. I don’t always read them simply because I rarely check my email, but whenever I am checking my email and if I come across it and if I have the 3 to 5 minutes then I will read thru it. But yes, “The One Thing”.  I am now doing my second read of it. And it is helping me to try and double down on refocusing to what is important and to stay pointed in the direction of my goals regardless of how I was just kicked in the face by a stupid judge (personal angry opinion).  And I mention this because I think it is important to remember that whenever anything throws us off course, especially mentally, I think that it is very important to find any means possible to get refocused on what our main goal or goals are. All it takes is one wrong thought to lead us in the wrong direction and take years away from us achieving our end results.

Break in writing…….

Ok so I am chunking this post…. It is now Sunday 02/10/19 and the time is about 11:30pm. It has taken way longer than I wanted but I now feel better. I have been able to finally either let it go and or find a new way to look at things. I actually began to feel better about 2 days ago, but as of now, I can finally feel almost all of myself moving forward. Remember life is 10 percent of what happens to you and 90 percent of how you mentally think about things. And it has taken time and also reading that book “The One Thing” that has helped me to move forward. Please also remember that even though I was EXTREMELY pissed, I still told myself that I must find a way to let it go. That I must refocus. And truth be told, it was and still is somewhat difficult because the tenant still gets to stay there, and each week I must still see that tenant and see how I lost money that I should not have lost. I must see it because I am still trying to get that damn apartment #1 finished. And when I see that tenant still there it is just reminicent of the event and scratches at the scab. And I had a dj friend from a long time ago, who once told me about someone that rubbed him really bad. And he said, “…. Well, I don’t wish anything bad for her, but I sure as hell don’t wish anything good for her either.” When I first heard that, I was like wow, talk about a back handed complilment. But the truth is that on every road to reinvention, at some point, even if it is just for a tenth of a pico second, we all feel that type of emotion. And currently for my tenant, I am luckily now just beyond the words that my friend Paul had once said about someone. However, if I allow myself to stay in that moment of what happened to me, I am sure that I will regress backwards.

Which is why it is now time to move forward and talk about how I am now, how is my mentality now? What has occurred recently?

Well I am mentally better. Could it be that I have written in my gratitude journal? Could it be that I have written in my small wins journal? Could it be the book “The One Thing”? Could it be that this past week I saw progress on apartment #1?….. I must digress for a moment….. Speaking of  apartment #1, You know, I made a list of the last 15 things that needed to get done to have it ready, And somehow, When I got with John, the 15 things turned into 21 things. And so I worked on trying to knock down those 21 things. And the good and bad of things is that I got a couple of things scratched off of the list, while some of the other things got worked on but have not gotten scratched off. Which a few days ago, when I was looking at the list, I could mentally see that most of those things were going to be finished this coming week. Which is a uber great thing. But then as life would have it, I couldn’t help but to notice how much work I have done on that apartment and how the bathroom faucets look like they are a throwback from a beat up trailer home. And something is now just scratching at me to get new faucets. Now I can just keep the current faucets, but it’s kind of like buying a brand new car for full price and getting balding tires on a brand new car. I mean it works, and still gets the job done, but for me, I want a complete package that also looks good. Especially since I have spent a lot of money on this apartment and a lot of time trying to get it ready. And not to mention all the lost rent during it’s renovation. And so this week I will be adding new faucets to the list. and maybe, just maybe, 2 new countertops to go with the faucets. but after that, that will be pretty much it. Every thing else looks pretty much picture ready. As a matter of fact, when it is done, I will post some photos just to show the final product.

Now back to what I was talking about prior to the digression…..What could it have been or what have I done to become mentally better. Well, if I think about it, it was a lot of little things… It was the book “The One Thing”, it was the fact that I kept telling myself that I must learn to move beyond it and that I MUST see things differently. It was that I wrote in my gratitude journal. It was that I meditated about my future. I was that I wrote in my small wins journal. It was seeing progress on apartment #1. And most of all, it was that I was vigilant about finding a way out of the funk. I refuse to not make my goals happen. I don’t need regret at the end of my life. What I need at the end of my life is to know that I made a very positive impact, that I lived fully in enjoying all that I could that this world has to offer, and that I gave of myself in many different ways as much as I took things in many different ways. My biggest challenge concerning mental attitude is learning how to “reframe” defeat. When I get kicked down once, I can get back up, but when I get kicked down twice without a way to defend myself, that’s when I get bothered. And somehow that is when I MUST get very good at reframing things. I must reinvent what I see around me. And reinvent in a way that still gets me to my goals.

To My Future,

Max