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Max here with another one….. This one will be short.

It’s Sunday about 9:44 pm and well, my life outwardly still feels the same but yet the inner me, well the inner me is on a journey. The inner me is moving. The inner me no longer lives on a poor side of town. The inner me no longer tolerates certain things. The inner me no longer cares if my childhood friends never speak to me. (And I mean that in a sincere way in which I wish the best for them and in all aspects of life.) For me, I have decided to journey farther than what currently sounds comfortable. But so the inner me is going thru many changes. They are micro and extremely subtle and sometimes hard to grasp or understand, but they yet very transformative.

Now the outer me still lives in the hood. The outer me still drives an outdated car that is now falling apart. the outer me still has a house that is not finished being built. The outer me is still aging faster than spoiled milk. The outer me still struggles with how to implement the strategy to propel me in a straight direction to my dreams. The outer me is still trying to keep this job at the club. The outer me is still trying to manage so many aspects of this thing called life. The outer me…… Well the outer me just wishes it had a shortcut to catch up to the inner me.

Now how has my mentality been…… Actually I think I have been mentally and physically lazy this week. I’ve been changing mentally but yet I feel that I have been lazy. And truth be told, I think I have been lazy for the last several weeks. Somehow I gotta get a good way to gauge my mental and physical productivity and find ways to get them in a “turned on” direct productivity mode.

This week it has rained literally a full 7 days. I mean that’s good if I was a farmer, but damn, A full 7 days is just a tad bit too much. It rained so much that it hindered my ability to have Eloy do some work outside. And if I am allowed one excuse, then it would be that this much rain really doesn’t inspire me to move internally or outwardly.

And I can’t remember if I mentioned it in the last post but my guy John recently had a heart attack. John currently does the last bit of the carpentry work at apartment #01 and sadly his heart attack  has kept him from finishing the inside of the apartment. Now what is the completion of the inside of the apartment? Well it’s now about 97 to 98 percent finished. And as I just wrote that, it reminded me that one of the things that I must do tomorrow is pay bills for the apartments and to find someone to power wash the cement driveway of the apartment. That apartment is literally so close to being finished. Sadly things like some of the flooring and some of the window blinds need to be replaced. But yes, John, heart attack. I visited him in the hospital and I will see him tomorrow. Getting old isn’t easy. The reality of life is that everyday is a gift. Sometimes it’s a crappy gift, but it’s still a gift.

also this week I wasn’t prepared to meet my professional organizer. I was supposed to meet with her this past Wednesday but didn’t schedule it in my calendar and totally forgot about the appointment. But we rescheduled for this Wednesday.  Then there is Eloy, I had to send him home early one day because he was just too high to be usable for me. Then there is my plumber Mike that is doing the plumbing work on my upstairs bathrooms. This has been going on for well over a month (or at least it feels like longer than a month) The guy has a great heart but is a character. Now about those upstairs bathrooms, those upstairs have been needing plumbing for over 5 years now. And as of this writing the upstairs plumbing is now 99% finished.  And overall that was pretty much it. I didn’t go skydiving because of the rain. I didn’t do much of anything because of the rain.

So how was this week after all? It wasn’t great but at least something (the upstairs plumbing got some movement) Everything else was that my mind needs to get stronger and more focused. I’m sure that somehow this coming week will be more productive. But for now that’s about it.

Wishing you the best,

Max