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Max here, still alive and focused enough to write another entry….

It’s a Saturday night @ work and this Monday is Memorial day. Sadly Memorial day doesn’t hold much meaning for me. All I really know about it, other than the military side of it, is that it is another holiday and another reason for the banks to be closed. For me about the only real holiday I personally recognize/ participate in at this time in my life is part of Xmas and New Years Eve. Why part of Xmas and why New Years Eve??? Part of Xmas is because I make gifts for the girls @ work. If I am going to be a giving person then I gotta start somewhere. For 2 years in a row I have hand made 75 personalized stocking stuffers with names and all and then purchased 75 gifts, then I hand wrapped each gift and wrote personalized notes for every girl. The first year was uber stressful. I had never made 75 stocking stuffers or made 75 gifts, let alone figure out how and where to buy 75 of the same gifts. Then I had to sit and actually think about each girl and my interactions with them in order to come up with a very personalized note for each of them and I didn’t even know how much this was going to cost. Needless to say the first year left me in debt. I was literally just throwing money at the whole thing until everything was bought and paid for. And more so anyone that knows me, knows that my inner being typically has a way of thinking that says…. If you do something then make it big and make it memorable. So much that on Xmas I even dressed up like the Grinch, costume, mask, hat, and even a red Santa sac with gag gifts, real gifts and all. I walked around the club slowly digging into the bag and pulling out one gift at a time for each girl. All I can say is that it brings out the kid in every girl. Definitely something fun to watch and experience.

The second year was a bit easier. Notice I said  easier, but not easy. This time I already had an idea of how to make the stocking stuffers and I had started thinking a lot sooner about the gift and look at different ways to buy it. The first year I used Amazon. And this last year I used Alibaba. Who would have thought that I would be having text messaging conversations with people in China about purchasing 75 necklaces for the women at my work. And all the while still working on my real estate dreams. Still going to work in Austin, and somewhere in between all that making sure to buy all the supplies and find time to make it all happen. Not an easy task for me. But in the end, if everything I read is right…. then in time, what I do will be more than noticed…. It will be respected. It will also help me learn how to use this knowledge and experience in my real estate business. Tony Robbins says… “People are rewarded in public for what they practice for years in private”. Besides, No other DJ I know does this type of thing for the people they work with. And also this year will be my 2nd annual company picnic. More about that on another post. But yes, if you take time to notice. I am doing what those above me fail to realize….. Or….. Maybe they just don’t understand and lack the true understanding of how to take care of people. Most businesses in life are “people businesses” sadly most Bosses forget that important factor.

But I digress and not what I meant to write about. Today’s post is more about how I have been the last few days. I am still reading Jack Canfield’s The Success Principles. It is actually a really good book and deserves at least 2 more reads. It has allowed me to see that I have quite a bit of growth to do in order to get closer to my dreams. I definitely have not taken enough time to focus on visualizing my 12 plex. And in some small ways Jack’s book is allowing me to zero down on looking more at what I believe is important. Now don’t get it twisted, I still need more reading to fully understand things about my dreams, my goals, my life, and the strategies needed to achieve my most amazing life possible, but so far the book is at least helping me to look in the right direction.

Then there is other things like my own personal self image. As I get older, now definitely over 45. (Wow, when I was little, I was told that 45 is “over the hill” I didn’t know what that meant but now as I write, it must mean what I now call… halfway dead) Any who, as I get older, it’s one more wrinkle, one more white hair, one less ounce of energy, one less day of motivation, one less day of being able to jump out of bed. Now at my age I “feel” like I have to work harder just to get things off the ground. I don’t go to the gym on any type of regular basis. I don’t focus on eating healthy every day. I ‘ve also never been an attractive man, so now also that side of my life is also twice as difficult. And Although I should go to the gym, I just currently don’t have the mental drive needed to get to they gym. And I don’t mean like I don’t want to go, but more like my brain isn’t craving it in any shape or form. Which oddly enough was not like that when I was younger.

But yeah, self image and getting older is a challenge all in itself. I have been telling myself for the last several months that I need to get to the gym. and luckily last week and this week I made it to the gym twice each week.  I must be honest, the whole time I am there I don’t want to be there, I have NO motivation while I’m there. You know as I think about it, I wonder if it’s that I want a different environment. Maybe as I am changing my mentality about my life, maybe I am wanting is to see different people. And I don’t mean specific individuals, but more of a different type of person at the gym. I noticed that this last time I went in, I didn’t feel at home with most of the people that I saw at the gym. Maybe now I am expecting more from the gym that I normally frequent. Maybe I want better looking people at the gym. Maybe I want older people at the gym. And I don’t mean older as in decrepit or people in walkers, but more like people my age that I can look up to that are looking good, and in better shape than me. Currently at the gym, I typically see fatter people than me. And they come in all ages, from young to old. And the ones in “good” shape are typically people half my age. Which is just not motivating for me. Not because they are young, but more because when you are young, it is easier, or at least it should be, easier to stay and or get into shape. But man, when you get to my age….. It’s a whole ordeal of its own.

Back to my “Still Moving”….So the gym….. made it twice this week and twice last week. My mental mind, slowly, moving forward. Which is at least a good thing. The apartment #1…. Well that is again still not finished, but that too is slowly moving forward. As I have mentioned in an earlier post, the AC isn’t working properly and needs someone to come out and fix it, which was not in my original plan. Did I bitch about it, Sadly yes. But luckily not for long and not to many. And as of this Monday, I think my enigma went to jail. How do I know, because he is not answering his phone. It goes straight to voicemail. And when I went to his house on Thursday, there was someone else living there and he said that he might have gone to jail. I didn’t really understand what that person (the one living in his house) was saying. That guy somehow jumbled timelines and just didn’t make sense in how the events happened. Overall, there is a good chance that he went to jail. He still does drugs like I do food. And last I heard he did something with moving cars that somehow made him $400 in an hour.

So Ive decided that what I’m gonna do to replace my enigma for this coming week is to go to an area of town where a bunch of people stand waiting for drivers by to stop and pick them up and give them work. For me this week the work I need done is literally labor work that will have them on their hands and knees cleaning the floor of the whole apartment. I don’t like looking for workers at the spot that I am going to on Monday, nor have I ever gone to look for workers there, but hey, there’s a first time for everything right?

Now to sum things up, Jack’s Book, The Success Principles has definitely been helpful this week. My mind a bit more in the right direction, less worry from last week of my Boss. My ability to try and stay on point by believing in myself was better than last week, I even was able to get to the gym this week. And yes, there are still personal draw backs in my life that I’m not open to writing about but even those must get better over time.

Thanks for reading,

Max.