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It’s Friday and things in my life have come to another major slow down, almost a halt. At least that’s what it currently feels like. No surprise right?

This will be a two part post. Post #1 will be about my time/day before work at the club. Part 2 will be posted later and will be about my night at the club. I personally feel what happens at the club tends to shape and design how I must shape or reshape for that matter, how I must think in order to stay pushing forward towards my goals….. So now Part 1

Now why have things come to a major slow down again?  Well…. not the first time and not the only thing, and as I am starting to learn, it probably won’t be the last time. So I know that the sooner I get used to things happening then the sooner I can learn to find ways to circumvent the thoughts, the feelings, and the setbacks. Now my worker/contractor has decided again that days that I need him are not the days that he is up to par with working with me. Again, obviously there must be a good reason, more money, family, etc. Either way I have to find a way around this emotional state and most of all I must find back up workers. This just isn’t going to work for me. I must not be scared to hire someone else. Before June, I am going to try someone else. But that’s not the only thing… my enigma (my worker from the neighborhood) I recently had him do some work for me. I decided that I was not going to supervise him. He was doing digging for a fence and well…. that shouldn’t require that much supervision. But to my dismay, I was wrong. Luckily I did not pay him up front. But I am sure that we will work something out. Within him is a good person and I’m confident it will work out in the end, it’s just that for now, things are now delayed. Then there is my mental state……Some how I think it has to do with my work schedule….. What’s my work schedule…. Work Friday night until 5 am, Work Saturday night until 5 am, Work Sunday night until 5 am. And real estate work happens anytime that I am not at the club. And as of late its been on the weekends after the club. Big NO BUENO.  Many times lately I will drive home at 7am and deal with my contractor or buy supplies, then finally get in bed by 11am. I then must be up by 4pm to shower, change, and rush to work. All of this erratic unscheduled sleeping habit I truly feel has added to my inability to be at peak performance both physically and mentally. The question is ….. How can I solve this? I need energy for almost literally 20 hours out of every Friday, Saturday, And Sunday. And to top it off, now as of at least the last few months. Every Sunday after work I don’t go to bed, instead I stay up and do something to try and be productive towards my life. Whether it’s as simple as making phone calls, washing clothes or going to the properties and checking on the progress and getting things planned for the next few days. I find Monday’s to be super important to the real estate. At least for me it currently is. Something about it seems like people start their business week on Monday. And that is something that I gotta get on top of.

Now recently there has been a forecast of rain and so outside work could not be done. This also caused a delay for the fence digging as well as outside work at my personal house. And since I was not able to find my enigma I ended up doing some work at the duplex without any help. It took me the better part of almost 12 hours non stop to get something accomplished. Man, I gotta say, sadly I don’t go to the gym and so I don’t exercise anymore, and so after 12 hours of vigorous non stop work of installing a 20foot 2×18 LVL beam up against a 15foot ceiling to support the second floor….. and do it alone…. it just wears you out. That night it was about 50 degrees both outside and inside the duplex and I didn’t even feel the cold because of the constant moving and climbing on the ladders. The next day all of my body and parts that I even forgot existed were screaming in pain. I definitely felt my age the next day. I still have one more beam of the exact size and weight to install. Hopefully I can find my enigma to help me. If not then I will just chalk it up to a day of huge exercise.

And for me most of this feeling of un-accomplishment is coming from the fact that apartment #1 at the 4plex still isn’t finished. Although it is closer, it’s like each day that I actually get work done on it, I can feel it being so close to being finished but yet at the end of the day it still isn’t ready, it still isn’t rented, and most of all it still isn’t making me money! I struggle with the reality that I only have 2 hands, I only have limited money, and currently, I only have limited resources. Tony Robbins says that its not the amount of resources that someone does or doesn’t have, but instead its about the amount of resourcefulness that someone invokes that truly turns the screws to success.

Somehow I gotta find the resourcefulness within me to make this happen. Sooner than later I gotta break through to the other side. Sooner than later I must finish that apartment and get it rented for the amount that I expect. I must find reliable, dependable workers. I must learn to adapt, roll, change, and pivot towards success. I must also learn to be a dependable, reliable owner, a dependable reliable leader and business man. I must find ways to schedule my life better. My birthday is coming up and I don’t feel accomplished in the dreams that I expect from and for myself. I feel that now over the last several years that I am actually trying more than I did over a decade before. Back in the day when I was doing music I was deep into making music, but I just didn’t have knowledge of how to do things. I had drive, but no strategy, which in turns means that what I would have needed to do was to burn the boats to achieve success. And sadly as I look back I just wasn’t ready to burn the boats. This scared mental mindset must be erased from within me. I MUST not be that type of person anymore. I must always be willing to burn the boats.

God Help Me!

Love,

Max.